[00:00.70]Chapter 35.
[00:03.97]Jane, Jane, Jane.
[00:09.02]He stayed for another week, and, by being polite and quiet, made me feel I had disappointed him terribly.
[00:19.03]When at last he was about to go, I knew we must part on good terms.
[00:25.91]Synjin, you are angry, I said.
[00:29.86]I hope we can still be friends.
[00:33.25]We are friends, he said, not looking at me.
[00:38.70]Not as we were.
[00:41.44]Will you go without a kind word?
[00:46.94]This time he faced me, his voice and face were cold.
[00:52.91]Will you not marry me?
[00:55.76]he said.
[00:57.62]His chilled anger was terrifying.
[01:01.51]I was afraid of him.
[01:03.87]No, I will not, I said.
[01:08.30]Why not, exactly?
[01:11.91]Because you do not love me, I said.
[01:15.40]In fact, by now I think you almost hate me.
[01:22.51]Then, he said bitterly, you must go by yourself to the mission field.
[01:31.03]He still thought he should make my decisions for me, and I would not have it.
[01:38.22]I have no intention of going to India, I said.
[01:44.04]And there is something here I must do.
[01:47.44]Something worries me and I need to put my mind at rest.
[01:56.83]You are wondering about Mr. Rochester, he accused me.
[02:03.30]He was right.
[02:06.85]I must find out what has happened to him, I said.
[02:12.68]Scowling, he left me, and I hoped that this time the subject was closed between us.
[02:21.77]We all said prayers together that evening, as usual, and afterwards he came to me once more.
[02:30.49]His persistence was wearing me down.
[02:34.87]Even as I wished him a safe journey tomorrow, he asked me gently and kindly this time to marry him.
[02:48.38]If I was certain that God wanted me to marry you, I would, I said.
[02:58.05]And, as he pressed his hand on my head and put his arm around me, I felt he was claiming me as his own.
[03:09.10]My heart was beating hard and fast.
[03:13.57]I found I had become completely still.
[03:18.94]I was waiting.
[03:22.85]Something, I had no idea what, something was about to happen.
[03:34.25]What is it?
[03:35.95]asked Sinjin.
[03:38.98]I heard a cry.
[03:41.50]It came from somewhere in the air, and it was wild, urgent and full of pain.
[03:49.72]Jane, Jane, Jane!
[03:57.39]Oh God, I cried.
[04:01.43]It was Edward Rochester's voice.
[04:05.65]I tore myself free and ran to the door.
[04:11.17]I am coming, I called out.
[04:16.64]Wait for me, I will come.
[04:22.78]I flung open the door and gazed into the empty garden.
[04:28.04]Where are you?
[04:31.91]My own voice echoed back.
[04:36.69]I sent Sinjin away from me, and this time he left without arguing.
[04:46.29]I had found my own true strength now.
[04:50.61]I thanked God that at last I knew exactly what to do, and I looked forward eagerly to the morning.